Do You Need A Good Reminder or A Good Cry?

Do you sometimes feel like this guy in this picture spiritually? Do you feel like you are doing the very best you can but you always feel like a failure or that God is disappointed in you? Do you nod your head with Paul when he writes in Romans "Why do I do what I hate to do and don't do what I should do?" Do you beat yourself up over past sin that you've already repented for? Do you feel like God is made at you? Do you feel like you just want to give up because being a Christian is to hard?

If you answered yes to any of these questions then I have something for you. I feel these questions coming on me all the time as well. I feel like I let God down often. I feel like I should be perfect all the time and I cant even be perfect for one day. I feel like God gave me so much I should just try harder and do more all the time and yet I mess up. Today was one of those days for me when I felt like a horrible son to an amazing Father. I felt like a horrible son who keeps letting my Father down over and over. Sometimes all it will take is me forgetting to read my Bible that day or for being selfish and impatient with my wife or daughter. Somedays its overeating. Somedays it feels like almost everything I'm doing isn't good enough.

But today God blessed me... God spoke to me... God wrapped His arms around me and gave me the answer that we all hope to hear yet we believe it is to good to be true. But today God spoke to me and gave me a great reminder of His love for me and He allowed me to have a good cry. Being a worship pastor I am obviously drawn to music and how God can touch people through music. So today I was listening to one of my favorite worship leaders from the International House of Prayer Misty Edwards and God spoke to me. It was as if God was singing to me with His hands holding my face forcing me to look at Him in the face. For the first part of the song I cried and Satan tried to make me feel like God isn't really like this. He doesn't love you like this. After struggling through that I was able to sit back and receive from God and allow myself to be vulnerable and loved in that moment and it was very refreshing to me.

So if you are in that spot of needing to hear God sing His love for you then please download this song by clicking here. It is worth the 99 cents believe me. If you need me to give you 99 cents I will.

PS: You wont be able to find the song really anywhere else right now. It isn't on YouTube or anything... I looked forever trying to find a video for it to post it. So just go to iTunes and buy it.